Bulletpoints

There is too much to update properly so I think I will catch everyone up with bullet points then I can get back to blogging normally.
~I just finished my first year back in college with a 3.85 GPA and have been awarded two scholarships.
~I will be applying to their nursing program in January.
~I am considering Frontier for my masters in Midwifery.
~I am now the proud mother of a two and a half year old funny man.
~I am just completing my fourth miscarriage, second since having my son.
~I suffer from RPL and PCOS that I know of but will be pursuing further testing soon.
~I am in the process of completing my Stillbirthday Doula certification. Check out Stillbirthday.com if you are interested in walking alongside families in birth with any outcome.
~I am about to start my second year of school and try Paleo lifestyle and Cross-fit.

There it is in a nutshell. I will be sharing the stories of all that my crazy life holds as it unfolds. Stay Tuned...

Prayer request

I have a friend who has had a previous loss that just got the beautiful news that she is pregnant. She is nervous, i think we all know that feeling , Please say some prayers for her and her LO that they stay cozy in there for another 9 months.

A mother's Longing

I long for that feeling again.
The glow of knowing what is inside, what lies ahead.
The hope for a new life.
A positive sign, a beating heart, a perfect mixture of you and him.


Reality hits, All that is gone.
Lost for now to a better world.
To wait with him until the day you meet.
That thought brings no solice yet.


There is an emptiness you cannot describe.
A hollow feeling that rips at you heart.
Tears fall without sound.


Can anyone hear,
your silent cries for a child you never saw?
Can anyone understand,
how unfair it is to never know the person you created?
Can anyone ever truly know
How I long for that feeling again?


~Kate Lydon