Wednesday, July 9, 2014

The Dream

I just lost my fourth pregnancy 37 days ago. It was a surprise after a 200 day streak without a period. It ended within a few days of finding out. Since then I have been eating strict paleo for 3 weeks now. I have been taking a cross fit class on Saturdays and working out in between. I have lost twelve pounds and on day 37 of my cycle today I started my period. So I would say things are looking up.

I have an appointment with an endocrinologist in August to check my levels and address the Recurrent Pregnancy Loss.

I had a dream three nights ago that I was in labor and long story short I was standing as the baby was crowning. Jason chickened out when the midwife mentioned catching the baby so I reached down and as the baby came out I grabbed under his armpits and pulled this perfect vernix covered chubby full term boy from my body and cradled him. I looked into his big round eyes and said "oh Miles, I love you".

It felt more like a promise than a dream... Like I was meeting my baby for the first time. I don't know if it was about a future baby or the baby I lost. But I am excited to find out.

Tuesday, June 10, 2014


There is too much to update properly so I think I will catch everyone up with bullet points then I can get back to blogging normally.
~I just finished my first year back in college with a 3.85 GPA and have been awarded two scholarships.
~I will be applying to their nursing program in January.
~I am considering Frontier for my masters in Midwifery.
~I am now the proud mother of a two and a half year old funny man.
~I am just completing my fourth miscarriage, second since having my son.
~I suffer from RPL and PCOS that I know of but will be pursuing further testing soon.
~I am in the process of completing my Stillbirthday Doula certification. Check out if you are interested in walking alongside families in birth with any outcome.
~I am about to start my second year of school and try Paleo lifestyle and Cross-fit.

There it is in a nutshell. I will be sharing the stories of all that my crazy life holds as it unfolds. Stay Tuned...