Wednesday, August 3, 2016
I live in a place between life and death. I work in the business of life and death. I understand the two exist concurrently and not to take away from each other. Today I feel both joy for those who lived and utter debilitation for he who did not.
Tonight as I sit here and come down from the day I am washed over by a wave of sadness. I ache for Miles tonight. I am desperate to hold him in my arms again. This time I want him to be breathing for his heart to beat.
In school today (Nursing school, BSN, I am a senior) we held a death cafe. We discussed death and Miles was spoken about. He entered the room in a way he hadn't in a while.
I want to scream, GIVE ME BACK MY BABY. I know I will see him again one day. I also know nothing separates me from him for eternity then.