Thursday, May 28, 2015

I got my first beta drawn Tuesday and it was 128. I feel good about that number because mine were always lower than that. I do realize it is still kind of a low beta. I am waiting all day now to hear back on my repeat draw today. I am praying every minute of the day for a healthy growing baby in there.


I have had a metallic taste in the mornings the last couple days and some growing round ligament pain and pain in the breasts but more of a shooting pain not a soreness.

I am eating healthy getting plenty of water in, and resting when I can. I am on 200 mg progesterone suppository per day. I am doing everything I possibly can to sustain this baby. This is pregnancy number 5...I am hoping it is baby number 2.

Monday, May 25, 2015


I have been pregnant three times since Jack was born in 2011. They were natural conceptions and the last two ended in early miscarriage. Now we know we need progesterone suppositories right away to help sustain pregnancy. The scary thing is, I have not carried a pregnancy to term ever. Jack's water broke at 30 weeks and every other pregnancy has ended before 8 weeks. I am unsure if it is just needed progesterone or if their are other deficiencies that put my babies at risk.

 As soon as I get good hcg numbers back I will make a high risk appointment to see if their is anything I can do to stay pregnant to term. I am avoiding caffeine, eating as healthy as possible, getting lots of water in every day and napping when I need to. That being said I am a mom of a three and a half year old and in school full time for nursing. I am slacking on my studies this weekend out of sheer distraction and exhaustion, which seems to be my only symptom so far. Not being nauseous or having sore boobs makes me nervous. I am trying to trust and believe in my body and God's hand in my life. 

The milestone of the day was getting a positive digital test. I took a cheapie test Friday and

it was positive. I naturally (haha) went out to get another stick to pee test and it was negative. I comforted myself with the fact that the cheapie reads 25mui and the digital reads 50mui.  Saturday the cheapie test was darker yay!!!!!!! Today I took the other digital and it was....positive!!!!!!! I am finding comfort that my levels must have doubled in 24 hr for it to now be positive. I get blood drawn tomorrow and Thursday to watch levels. 

I am so excited at the thought that my son may actually have a sibling to grow up alongside. I am so happy I may be able to experience this all over again. I am excited for birth and baby kicks and breastfeeding and newborn noises and smells. All of this excitement makes me so anxious and nervous to lose the baby. I am trying to be zen with those feelings and not let stress sit in my body. let the thoughts come and then pass. 

Saturday, May 23, 2015


I did the 21 day fix in April. I lost ten pounds and lots of inches. I had been on Birth control for a few months. I was accepted into the nursing program at my school and getting ready to start clinical this spring. I haven't been as dedicated this past month and I missed the first pills of my bc pack so I didn't take it. I took a test this morning and I am pregnant.

I cannot believe after years of trying and 4 miscarriages and a premature birth I would get pregnant from missing a few pills. Ironic I suppose. It just proves that God's timing is not my own. That being said I am nothing but grateful.....and terrified.

I started my progesterone today. I am hoping to get two HCG quants next week. As long as those are normal I want to then just be trusting and not do anymore. Just the normal dating ultrasound and biophysical profile.

I pray I make it that far.