Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Hodge Podge

It seems as if my posts are all an "update" or hodge podge of things going on in my life. Sorry for that. I wish I was a better blogger for you all.

I had a shorter cycle last month with my acupuncture treatments 39 days!! Here is to small victories!!
I have been temping and charting with fertility friend again this cycle to see if I can notice other positive cycle changes. With doing that I saw a clear thermal shift into luteal phase this time that went along with CM changes and cramping i had. I am pretty sure I ovulated!!
I had a fabulous acupuncture session yesterday night. This morning I woke up and was SO DIZZY. Vertigo dizzy with nausea.... I am not sure if anyone out there has experienced that after a good acu session? The only other times I have felt this way were every time I have implanted and ended up preggers. But the dates and timing having charted don't make sense with implantation.  The dizziness and nausea are subsiding as long as I keep eating when I wait too long it comes back full force.

School starts next week. I have taken 3 classes. I am organized and ready to go. I am just waiting for a refund check to get my computer. My computer is 10 years old and needs a serious update to have everything I will need for school. So I am replacing it :)

Looking forward to this new (and crazy busy) Chapter in my life.

Sunday, August 4, 2013

One Year Anniversary

Tomorrow August 5th ...The one year anniversary of my third miscarriage.  I know in my heart this baby was a girl.  I have not named her but I will ask her her name when I meet her in heaven.

I have not thought a lot about her every day. I see butterflies or dandelions and my babies cross my mind I get a sad feeling and remember my hopes for them here on earth.

When I think about this baby I feel sad that she would have been days apart from my best friend delivering my God Daughter Amelia. They would have been babies together...Crib mates...Best Friends just like her and I. I can see them both running around my yard if I close my eyes. It is rather fitting that I get to spend the day with Amelia tomorrow. It will be cathartic to hold her when my arms are aching for the baby I lost.

I am releasing balloons with a message on it for her tomorrow night. Sending up my love into heaven. Hoping my words find their way to my baby's heart.