Friday, December 31, 2010
Then I knew i was working, (and i have bronchitis and a sinus infection) and am coordinating a huge event for NYE at work all night. I was going to get out early 11pm... but when i called my hubs to tell him...he was at one of our BF's house with people, I just let him know i was tired and not excited for the ball drop, was very down about this year, and honestly Kayden is all i thought about all day.
#1 I dont feel good and want my PJ's
#2 I dont want to be around people and feel like i have to pretend to be happy so i dont bring everyone else down, honestly i knew id be a hott mess at ball drop and wanted to have a good ugly cry.
#3 (here is my bitter IF moment of the day) The friends he was with are my god daughters parents and they are so happy and blessed and celebrating that today, honestly as much as i love them and love being around them always <3 xoxo Den, I was in the opposite mood and couldnt be around that today.
INSTEAD of my DH understanding that he kept saying WHATEVER in a pissy tone. I was like well are you going to stay there til midnight or come be with me. He said he was staying there.
OKAY so i got off the phone and texted him Thanks for the support...IM YOUR WIFE...dont know if you remember?? He said I ruined his night and he apparently went home and to bed.
I texted him nevermind i am staying at work and getting paid to be miserable.
I did just that, I am just getting home, I didnt get a good cry, I feel like he and I will never be on the same page, I feel like he isnt supportive enough, and we are about to start 2011 on a terrible note. WONDER_FUCKING_FUL. uggghhhhhh
Happy fucking new year everyone.
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
I am desperate to be pregnant again. It is all I aspire for right now.
Which wil be difficult until IVF #1 because I havent had a period since the august cycle before conception of Kayden....almost 5 months....I am going crazy.
Monday, December 27, 2010
1. Get Pregnant.
2. Carry above mentioned Healthy Baby(ies) to term and deliver.
3. Write and send more handwritten cards and letters.
4. Make more time to read.
5. Take a trip with my husband (never went on a honeymoon).
6. Get healthy (eat better, work out)
7. Cook a new recipe every week.
Sunday, December 26, 2010
EPIC FAIL yet again!!!!! These thumprint cookies kicked our ass 2x now! But the only way we could get the cookie to keep its shape was to use the prepackaged sugar cookie mix.
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
I want to have children of my own and grandchildren to surround me and make my life full, and great granchildren to amuse me....and to feel whole and complete for once in my life...
I dont want to feel a huge gaping hole torn through my chest and freezing me with the winds of jealousy every day. I dont want to hear about another aquaintance that is 18 just graduated and finds out they are pregnant with some guys baby that wants nothing to do with them. It breaks my heart that so many deserving loving women with loving husbands cant create a little being in their likeness but kids can...
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
So then we drove to the hotel and it was a nice room, nice hotel...but i didnt realize it was located in the projects hahaha...not the best side of town. All night all i heard was sirens every two minutes...when we walked down the strret to find out the t was way too far to walk to in that neck of the woods we realized our neighbor was this building lol. Explains all the noise we were right near Boston Medical.
Look at this tree!! Gorg!
Look how pretty!!!
Me and Mom
All in all It was the best trip I have ever had! And we are going to book early next year so we get a good hotel and a good area and make it an annual tradition. I just finished making and putting together the best's christmas gifts. I am too excited to see her open them.
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Rubber wall base!! like you see in the hospital along the base of the wall (hence the name) lol. It worked perfect!!! So step one we cut the wall base strip into coaster squares.Printed out the pics we wanted to adorn the coaster with....Modge podge thin coast onto base then smooth photo onto it, when that is dry modge podge a thin layer over photo, when dry repeat one last time. Also same idea with the modge podge and photo onto miniatue art canvases for ornaments...HERE IS THE CONTROVERSIAL GIFT...I have a friend who is oober political and controversial, he loves to get a rise out of people with his facebook status'. And i wanted to give him a gift with that theme this year...This one fell from the sky...I looked through his status' for this one...Happy holidays is what terrorists say...LOVE IT! So i traced the saying onto freezer paper...cut it out for an HOUR with an exacto knife, Ironed it onto the shirt and painted over it.And this is the final product...HILLARIOUS...he will get a kick out of it!!!
We also finished up our now ripe vannila extract by straining it and bottling it in our personalized labeled bottles.
The funnel i got at home depot for a dollar on clearance hahahahahaThere is the bestie straining it with coffee filters which took forever...We ended up pouring it through a mesh tea steaper. Below are my bottles Its all ready to go...now for tie blankets...tommorow. I am too tired to do them tonight.
Oh and tommorow me the best and our moms leave for BOSTON, I surprised my mom for christmas with this trip...2 nights in a hotel, shopping eating talking...should be so much fun!
Monday, December 13, 2010
I have set a goal for us of a year. my new years resolution is to get a sticky pregnancy. and if we dont get pregnant through IVF this coming year, then we will start an adoption process. I will have a baby, a family of at least 3, by 2013. Because me and my wonderful husband deserve it. We deserve to share all this love we have for eachother with a little bambino.
Thursday, December 9, 2010
Hey all thanks for stopping in!! I just did a decoration post below please see that for all my holiday shopping/ decorations.
I want to share my recipe for Chocolate covered Peanut Butter Balls. This recipe will be at every one of my Christmas parties this year. Everyone LOVES it!!!
Chocolate covered Peanut Butter Balls
2 sticks butter, softened
2 c. peanut butter
1-1/4 to 1-1/2 lb. powdered sugar
1 (12 oz.) pkg. chocolate chips
1 lg. Hershey bar
1/4 bar of paraffin
Mash together butter and peanut butter. Add powdered sugar, and mix well. Shape into 1 inch balls and freeze overnight. In a double boiler, melt together the chocolate chips, a large Hershey bar, and food-grade paraffin or beeswax.
Dip balls into chocolate mixture and place on wax paper. Refrigerate until cool. Use toothpicks to dip balls.
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Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Speaking of Black friday, me and my sister in law Nicolle went shopping at 2:30AM this year. This is us taking a very touristy picture near the LL BEAN boot in freeport even though we are Mainers. I reccomend doing this, go find a touristy place in your town and take a pic even tho your not a tourist ITS FUN!!!
Above is us in the middle of LL bean ville. The lights were soso pretty. Below is our tree fully decorated in the alcove I was talking about. What kind of tree do you do?? Upside down? Color themed? Ribbon and bows?? I do the classic eclectic ornaments over the years tree. So I thought i'd bring you through my favorite ornaments and their story.
I hope everyone is doing whatever makes them happy this holiday season, carrying on traditions or starting something new!!