The UGLY truth

Weighed in this morning on DAY 1 of the 60 day Juice fast. The ugly (disgusting) truth is I am 248 lbs.

GULP

I had my husband take before pics that I will eventually share and some more fleshy ones that I will never share. But those are going to be my motivation. When I looked at what the back of me looks like in Le Buff I was like ok now I know where to go when I get a craving!!! One look and I won't be hungry anymore.
Tomorrow I will weigh in and hopefully post my first few juice pics but I am reserving posting the recipes until I get them right.

How am I feeling you ask??
Like ass...headache and it is 7pm and I am exhausted to the point of I am going to bed now. generally feeling crumby. But it will get better I know it!!! I am keeping on the juice fast!

Pre-Juice Organization

Today we did the Pre-Juice Groceries. I think I was actually sweating at every stores check out. I am convinced I won't spend this much every time I go. I think it is just because I don't know exactly what i need for recipes and which ones I will and won't like so I bought just about every fruit or veggie I saw and also focused on ones that help with my PCOS symptoms lowering insulin resistance acne and inflammation.

Here is the Loot ...                                                

And a few photos of my new Juicing area ...My fridge is packed to the brim and I also have a little mini fridge in the basement with 4 or 5 things in it. I am ready to be healthy!! Tomorrow is Day 1!

We are officially starting our 60 day juice fasting cleanse!! My PCOS symptoms are at an all time high right now and I need to do something to heal my body...it looks like after the fast I am looking at a veganish rawish diet as my goal. I have done 2 days of research and am very very excited! At first it started as a way to kickoff the weight loss (which I am hoping it will do) but now it is more of a way to heal my body from the inside out and a bonus is the weight loss. In the  essence of honesty for others this blogging journey may help I will put it all out there...no judgement...please.

Symptoms I would like to reverse...

Acne

Back Pain

Abdominal bloating, pain, and general discomfort

ovarian cysts

Lack of Menses

Hormonal imbalance leading to moodiness and anxiety

Anovulation

Dry skin

Overweight

I am weighing in pre-fast tomorrow and taking photos which I am probably going to keep private which bothers me because when researching this the blogs i got the most from had photos. I am a very visual person and I want to share them for that reason but I know too many people in real life that follow my blog. 

If at the end I look like Barbie I might share them :) haha. 

My goal is to juice 100% because when i am given an inch in a diet i take a mile...of junk food...so to avoid that I am going to try to go 100%. I am a bit worried about the insulin resistance and glucose levels with the fruit juices so I may add seeds for protein or chicken. we will see.

My husband is "going to do it with me as long as he can" So we will see how that goes haha.

I am also excited to share some juice with my Jack man because of the healing properties...and I may try to cook/bake with the pulp for the daycare kiddos for health purposes and to not be so wasteful. 

Things I am concerned about are cravings...and temptation with cooking for the kids all day. I am worried I wont make time for my exerscise I want to do everyday. I am nervous Jason will quit and I won't have that much needed support. 

All of my excitement WAAAYYY outways all the concerns. So heeerreee weee gooooo!!!!