Nervous

I had a good day. I spent some good time shopping (with other people's money) for work decorations. Good conversation was had, and IVF was discussed....

I realized on the drive home HOPE has embedded itself into my heart and soul, it came by and cuddled in. Before you know it all my conversations about the upcoming cycle leaves my inside thoughts saying we are going to have a baby.

Then I realize along with allowing myself to hope and dream of a pink baby bundle comes the possibility of being let down again. (yep were back there again). Or getting the BFP again and heaven forbid (KNOCK on wood) it doesn't last again.

Ugghh I want to let myself just hope and be excited and let the proverbial chips fall. BUT I so desperately don't want to be hurt.

Dear God,
Please allow our babies to come into our lives now, let this be the time.


OH YAH and the weirdest thing happened...that I am choosing to take as a good sign about the upcoming IVF cycle. I was walking through the Christmas tree shops and i got in line to checkout and right there in line was a reusable bag i was checking the price and noticed the tag says "Kate & Carly"... Carly is my DH's childhood friend (and girlfriend) who passed away in a car accident when he moved to Maine back in 2000. She came to me in a reading by a medium and said she is with Jason all day, watching over him and keeping him company. This was right before the BFP ( they said I was pregnant during the reading) and we talked about naming a baby girl after her by her middle name being Carly. When I say my prayers at night I also ask Carly to keep Kayden company up there. So I think this is a good sign...

Extreme couponing 2/13- 19

This extreme couponing trip was a little bit different. Last week it was couponing then seperately groceries. this week I decided if I really wanted to save money I should be couponing while grocery shopping. So here are this weeks stats.



At Wal-mart where I did mostly my regular weekly groceries. But with lots of coupons. I spent 72.56 and saved $32.50. At K mart (who I just found out also doubles coupons along with Shaws) I spent $20.36 and saved $12.93. At CVS I spent $13.39 and saved $14.24. At Shaws I spent $10.13 and saved $19.07. At Rite Aid I spent $31.69 and saved $60.00.



For a Grand total spent of $148.13 and saved a total of $138.74.



And Here is that loot!!!

2 packages of Hilshire farn deli meat

A pound of american cheese

2 totinos frozen pizzas

phillidalphia baking cream cheese

lean pockets

2 boxes of toaster pastries

2 gallons of icecream

a half gallon of milk

a gallon of orange juice

2 green giant veggie steamers

2 kilbasa

10 yolplait yogurts

2 lbs ground beef

12 pack cottenelle toilet paper

6 pack bounty paper towels

2 liquid dishwasher detergents

2 soft scrubs

2 boxes of finish dishwashing tabs

5 boxes of cereal

2 packs of bisquits

4 jars of pasta sauce

3 cans diced tomatos

4 boxes of ziploc bags

2 pack of replenish opti free contact solution

4 boxes pasta

a can of spray paint

pack of jello pudding

gain fabric softener sheets *80 count
a bottle of vaseline lotion intesive repair
2 boxes of cookie brownie bar mix
4 cans of progresso soup
2 colgate sensative toothpastes
2 boxes of special k bars
5 boxes of mac n cheese
2 boxes of pop tarts
2 degree deoderants
a box of Krusteaz pancake mix
2 bottles of Propel water
2 boxes nature valley bars
2 bags chex mix
a box of milk bones
And my favorite item of savings a two pack clear blue easy digital pregnancy tests for after this upcoming IVF cycle.

Not too shabby for $148.13 if I do say so myself.