Last stim shot hopefully!!!

Holy Poop! I can't believe tonight might already be my last stim shot. I am starting to bruise so I Don't Hate it!!! I may possibly give the trigger tommorow night then retrieve Monday!

I am getting super psyched for the retrieval. I have never done IVF before and have no idea the quality of my eggs, or our embryos. That is the most exciting/ nerve wracking part of this for me. I finally get to know what I am producing in there. And then hopefully have a better idea why it isnt working.

I have bw and us in the morning and then will get the call tommorow afternoon to find out for sure when to trigger. AHHHHH I have the shakes I have so much running through my veins and mind right now.

On the side effect end of things. Bad headaches and some nausea are starting to creep in. Yesterday I had dizziness and the only other time I can remember feeling that exact way was when I was pregnant with kayden (just implanting) and I am hoping it is just another sign from God that this is our time to finally have our family here with us on earth. ...Or it could be meds lol. Also I feel like I shoved Bocce Balls in my abdomen. I can feel my ovaries rubbing on all my other insides and it is so uncomfortable. Also at the point now of having a sharp pain here and there in the breasts and ovaries. I will take it if it brings me a baby(s).

Positive visualizing thoughts tonight for sure. Prayer welcome. <3

Pray for my cycle buddy Baby Hopes while your at it!!! Hope you are stimming away over there BH!! Thinking of you!

Anticipation

Anticipation is always the absolute worst part. I just did it. And it didnt hurt any worse than when my DH does it. Its all the lead up to sticking myself thats all.

I am too excited to see whats going on in my lady business tommorow morning. My SIL is coming since she is really the only one who knows around here, and my DH has to work. Hopefully I will also find out when the retrieval will be. My boss has been bothering me to know what days I need off next week for the transfer and retrieval...And I don't Really know until I know. So it is making me anxious. But I cant let myself be stressed over anything, I need a nice calm home for the embinos!!!

In other news...One of my fav colleagues told me she had a dream someone at work was pregnant with twins. ( She had a dream when I got pregnant with Kayden that she saw 2 people having babies and my Office manager and I had just gotten preg and hadn't told) So that is sort of psyching me up!!! I am trying not to read into it though. I will take how ever many babies God wants me to have as long as I can be a mom.

I am feeling that Yearning, hope, sadness again. I want this so bad.
If you feel like it...Please pray for us. That if this is our perfect time, that our babies make it to earth this time.

Self injection nerves.

I am working until 8:30ish tonight. Ill be getting home just in time for my injection...only thing is my DH will be at a hockey game. This will be the day 5 of stims and the first I actually have to do myself. Lupron wasnt bad but this new concoction hurts like a B*tch going in and has a larger needle then before. I am nervous to do it on my own haha. Im being a baby I will suck it up.

Stim night 3!

I can tell I am responding already. I am very twingee in the ovarian region. And I can feel my ovaries and ute. I dont know how else to describe it it is uncomfortable to feel an organ, it is sensative and i am already bloating so my jeans are tight.





I have a b/w and u/s visit Thursday so we will see!!!!





I recieved 2 blog awards and am very excited and grateful and WILL post on them tommorow and hand them back out I PROMISE!!!





Quick shout out to my cycle bud Baby Hopes @ http://chasingourstork.blogspot.com/ if you feel compelled shoot her a positive vibe and or say a little prayer her cycle to bring a baby to fill her arms and heart!!

IVF

Our visit to Boston IVF went well. We signed all our consents and I got my day 3 bw done for my insurance to aprove. The insurance aproval usually takes a few weeks. In the meantime they have me on another pack of pills and when that period comes (in less than 3 weeks now) I will have to take 14 more days of pills and within that fourteen days I will be starting my lupron injections. Then 10 days of meds and hopefully a retrieval and transfer soon after that.

I am so glad to have a plan now. It feels like I am actually working towards something rather than just sitting in limbo. I am excited at the prospect of being pregnant again, but more than that I am excited to see the quality of my eggs and our embryos, hopefully this will give us more insight as to what our problem is.

but of course on the consents that we signed it says all the dos and donts as of now. Adn one of those is no meds but tylenol not prescribed for IVF. And so what happens I get bronchitis. SWEET. NOT. So I am pretty freaking miserable right now. Waiting for a doctors apointment and I am going to call BIVF to see if antibiotics are ok.

Meds

I talked to my Dr's office and they gave me my med schedule which includes...Lupron, Bravelle, Menopur, Ovadrel, and Endometrin. The good news is after prescription insurance deductible and copays it will be a little below 300.00. I will have to scrounge to come up with it because money is tight right now, but it is a lot less than I expected. about 3 weeks til the meds start. I am in desperate need of a period...in a few days I will have one and hopefully feel less anxious and bitchy.