Retrieval tommorow!

Retrieval tomorrow morning 8 am. No food or drink after midnight, not that i ever eat after then lol. I am getting nervous now for sure.

I got sun today reading outside with the pups and now my med hot flashes are killer. I had started getting them at church this morning and because of the slight OHHS i was super uncomfortable and standing and sitting wasn't happening i sat the whole time as to not be in too much pain. But I needed to go and pray before tomorrow. I wanted to get a blessing from the priest. I am going to say what happened and then touch on how it made me feel later. I am trying so hard to stay cool and not stress so these embies have a good home to come back to.
The priest said OF COURSE what for? And I just blurted out IVF he asked what I meant I said In Vetro Fertilization. He said he could not bless me for moral reasons... I stood there dumbfounded i am pretty sure my jaw dropped and mouth was actually open. He said he didn't know my circumstance but that multiples made on purpose were not okay, not gods will. (he obviously has no clue what IVF is) and that embryos are discarded are abortions and killing babies is not okay. But he wished me well.

I left bawling my eyes out had to walk by all the parishioners to get to my car up the street.

This is why I don't call myself catholic. I believe in the relationship with God and not the "religion". I know this is GODS plan for us. I hear his voice in my life. I would not have made it this far without his support. I may never go back to my childhood church. But like I said I don't want to stress out so I have made my peace with what I am doing, it is right and good and the only way some of us out there fighting this battle for a family are going to get one. And that is okay. Support needed in a big way right now. Hott.Mess.